Chapter One, Feisty – a sneak peek

Feisty releases on Tuesday, January 28. Here’s the entire first chapter as a sneak peek. Are you ready? Have you preordered? 🙂

Chapter One

“Miss Fiona, Jahra picked her nose and fed it to the hamster.”

Mattie Fletcher-Lingoni’s voice is even, calm, and perfectly blunt as he accurately recounts what I, too, just witnessed. No one in my master’s program in child development ever explained the proper procedure for handling preschool-aged children who feed boogers to classroom pets.

“Did not!” Jahra tries to bend reality.

“Did too.” Mattie is undeterred.

Jahra fails.

“And you didn’t even wash your hands after. We’re s’posed to wash our hands so the germs don’t kill us,” Mattie declares.

“Germs don’t kill us.” Jahra uses a time-honored tactic: Initiate conflict as a way to deflect.

“Do too! My daddy says germs are silent killers. They kill you without screaming!”

“Bad guys scream. Bad guys don’t stay quiet,” Jahra argues. “They scream when they kill you in the movies.”

I make a mental note to tactfully ask Jahra’s parents what she’s been watching on Netflix lately.

“Jahra is a bad guy for feeding poor Piggly her booger! Boogers are not food,” Janelle pipes up, her rainbow ombré the kind of cute touch on a little kid that is also a visual reminder of parents who can afford the elaborate hair treatment and a kid who will sit still for long enough to have it done.

“Boogers are not food!” Mattie echoes.

Jahra bursts into tears. Wet, sloppy, snotty, wailing tears.

Welcome to my classroom. 

Twenty students age four or so, me, two assistants, and a hamster named Piggly, who now, apparently, has eaten the first-ever all-booger breakfast.

Scratch that.

I’m sure that at some point in the five years since I started teaching, one of my students had the first all-booger breakfast.

Piggly isn’t all that original.

“Jahra,” I say, giving her a hug as she sniffles and hitches her breath. “Please don’t feed Piggly snacks from your nose.”

“But… but he wanted it.”

“He did?”

“He said so!”

“Piggly talks to you?” Mattie asks with the kind of skepticism that makes me just know he’ll grow up to be an accountant. I taught his cousin, Max, two years ago, and his dad is an accountant, so maybe it’ll run in the family.

I know the Fletcher family all too well.

I catch Michelle’s eye. My twenty-one-year-old intern teacher gives me a smile that is more knowing than it should be. She’s a natural with four year olds.

I smile back.

We’re twelve minutes into the start of our day.

It’s going to be one with a great story I can tell people.

Teaching preschool may not pay well, but the extras are soooo worth it. I’m blessed with stories.

Booger tales.

We-don’t-eat-charging-cables tales.

Don’t-use-tampons-for-craft-time-when-you-sub tales.

Wait. That one’s for my best friend, Perky. She will never be subbing in my class again.

Ever.

“Piggly whispers to me,” Jahra tells Mattie, eyes shifty. When four-year-olds are learning how to lie, they start in really obvious ways. “He told me he likes how boogers taste. Giving Piggly some of my boogers was being kind.” Dark eyes framed by long, curled-up eyelashes meet mine. “Miss Fiona always tells us it’s important to be kind.”

“Boogers are kind?” Janelle asks, clearly doubtful. She’s a lawyer’s kid, so the sneer comes naturally. “I don’t think so. Who shares boogers and the person likes them?”

Michelle bites her lips to stop from laughing. We have plenty of students who like to dine on their own nose cuisine. Her toes curl up in her slippers, all of us wearing them, the change from street shoes to quiet, contemplative footwear part of the morning ritual.

What comes next is anything but routine.

The energy in the room changes before the sound hits our ears.

Squealing tires outside make me turn instinctively, the booger conversation on the back burner for a split second as protective instinct draws me away.

Our school is in a small strip mall. We’re on the end, with a fenced playground off the back, the edge of the fencing touching thick woods with trails that are maintained by the town. The conservation land helps to make the school feel less strip-mall-ish. Unfortunately, sharing a parking lot with a coffee shop, a convenience store, a consignment shop, an insurance agency, and a women’s fitness center means there’s more car traffic than we’d like.

The front door is locked. Back door, too. Windows are latched but can be opened for quick evacuation.

Inventorying this takes a split second.

What feels like a century is my own awareness that a wave of bad energy is coming.

And I can’t stop it.

“What was that?” Janelle asks, craning her neck around me to look at the front door, which is glass. You can see the parking lot between the painted flowers on the door.

“Just a driver going a little too fast,” I say, hoping I’m right, knowing I’m not.

“Like Mommy when we’re late for gymnastics?” she asks sweetly.

Mental note number two: Don’t ask Janelle’s mom to be a driver for our next field trip.

Our preschool has two big rooms with a single door connecting them. Two offices and two bathrooms are carved out of the space in the back. A small mudroom, made of a tiny greenhouse structure, is where we store boots and coats for recess time. Half the kids are in here with Michelle and me, while the other–I do a head count, nine–are with Ani, our other aide.

Bam bam bam.

Instantly, my eyes jump to the four cameras in the room, fisheye lenses strategically placed for maximum coverage. There are four in the other room, too, and two on the playground. Parents can watch everything we do via webcam, all day.

It makes separation anxiety so much easier.

The parents take longer to recover than you’d think.

I turn toward the banging to find Rico Lingoni, Mattie’s dad, standing on the other side of the door, hands on his hips, chest rising and falling with huffing, angry breaths.

“Oh, boy,” Michelle says, suddenly at my side, the two of us moving toward the door to act as a shield. “Candi warned us about this.”

Candi Fletcher-Lingoni is Mattie’s mom and Rico’s soon-to-be ex-wife. Last week, she showed us a protection from abuse order, a new custody order for Mattie, and even asked the local police to keep an eye on Mattie’s school and their home, in case Rico did, in her words, Something worse.

Without moving my mouth, I say softly, “Get the kids in the other room, get them all in the back office and evacuate if you can. Do it quietly and call 911. He wants Mattie.” The words are surreal but they have to be precise.

“But Fiona, I–”

“Now.”

As if they pick up on the change in energy–because, of course, they do–every child in the classrooms looks up at us.

And Mattie’s face lights up as he looks at the glass door.

“Daddy!” he shouts, fingers still on the small sticks he’s arranging for his project, eyes bouncing between the door and his work. “Why is my daddy here so early?”

Bam bam bam.

Joy turns to terror on Mattie’s face, color draining from him.

No four year old should ever, ever have that expression.

Any other intern teacher would panic. Any other intern teacher would clap her hands loudly, or call out an announcement. But Michelle isn’t just any intern.

She’s an intern who survived a shooting at her high school when she was fourteen.

So Michelle moves quickly, softly, and nearly silently. Like an Australian shepherd, she herds the children into the other room by circling in a wide arc, only Mattie left with me as she gets everyone in with Ani, whose worried eyes meet mine for a split second, her frown so deep her glasses slide lower on her nose, short brown hair curling over the tips of her ears.

Rico smacks a paper against the door. “Today’s supposed to be my day, Fiona. I got papers that say so.”

I smile at him, nodding, holding up one finger to buy time. “Just a minute.”

A tinkling sound, like small pieces of metal dropping on ice, comes into my consciousness as I put my hands on Mattie’s shoulders. His neck is twisted, body facing away from his dad, eyes unable to not look.

“Sweetie? Go with Ani and Michelle.”

“But–”

The metallic sounds get louder, and then I remember what Rico Lingoni does for a living.

He’s a locksmith.

Normally, I turn off my phone during work cycles with the children, but we’re not even twenty minutes into the morning. Our days have a rhythm and the rhythm has been interrupted, so as I hear notifications pinging in the air, I realize they’ll only increase in intensity.

Because we’re on camera, being watched by parents.

“Mattie. GO!” I hiss, his face crumpling as Miss Fiona turns from fairy-light goodness to firm, tense protector, his body ushered by my hands, my urgency vibrating out of my skin.

Michelle takes him in her arms just as Rico breaks into the school, a long pick in one hand, brandished as a weapon.

“You give him to me, Fiona. You give him to me now. Candi can’t do this. She lied to that dumbass judge and you know it. He’s mine and no stupid bullshit restraining ordah is gonna split up my family. I’m heah to take what’s mine.” A thick Boston accent punctuates his words. Bloodshot eyes with bags underneath and the bloat of a bender radiate danger.

Rico’s past the point of no return.

Nothing in my child development classes prepared me for this.

But something much deeper in my past did.

Every second I buy means a greater chance that no one gets hurt. Hopefully, Michelle and Ani are leading the children out the back door, the police on their way, their response time swift because nothing bad ever really happens in Anderhill, Massachusetts, bedroom community to Boston, home of the Dance and Dairy festival every August. 

A place where people send their four year olds to a tiny strip-mall preschool because it’s safe.

Why wouldn’t it be?

“You’re right, Rico,” I tell him, soothe him, pretend and friend him. That’s what we do, right? When we’re in danger? We say whatever it takes to defuse.

“I am?” His neck jerks back. He’s expecting a fight. Boozy eyes, dark and oily, meet mine. Rico hasn’t showered in days, I suspect, a heady, sour scent emanating from him as he takes his free hand and shoves his hair off his face, the other hand clutching the lock pick.

“Sure.” My agreement makes him move closer, looking over my shoulder at the open door between the rooms.

“Then get Mattie ovah heah.”

“I will.”

More notifications ping ping ping through the air like bullets whizzing by. My eyes take in his body. The old jean jacket over a hoodie could hide anything.

It could be hiding a gun.

A phone in the office rings.

“Ignore it. Mattie.” Rico jumps forward, the lunge setting my blood to nothing but electric current, shooting through me in a spray of shock. “Now!”

The texts and phone ringing blur out another sound, footsteps.

Little footsteps.

“Daddy!” Mattie shouts from the other room, out of sight behind the closed door but audible. “Don’t hurt Miss Fiona! Not like Mommy! Please, Daddy!”

And then he’s suddenly quiet, hopefully pulled to safety.

“You bitches,” Rico screams as he points the long, thin lock pick–the kind that could skewer a heart or a throat with one careful plunge–right at me.

As he charges.

Sirens, dim and too distant to help me right now, turn into my own heartbeat as the thick, sour stench of alcohol and a primitive bloodlust assault my nostrils, Rico so close that the tip of his lock pick grazes my arm. He’s taller, bigger, more muscular, and on a mission to harm.

In hand-to-hand combat, I’m not going to win, but if he breaks loose and chases after Michelle for Mattie, he’s capable of anything.

Which means I have to be capable of more.

Until the police arrive and save us.

Please save us.

I pull back. He grabs for me, missing my arm but fisting the long, diaphanous sleeve of my dress. It billows in strips of purple, white, and silver, a beautiful style until it becomes a point of leverage for a man who wants nothing more than to push several inches of steel into my flesh so he can kidnap his own son.

I can’t get away, can’t escape his grasp. The fabric tears as I try, his hold resolute, his huff a grunt of victory.

“You bitches always think ya so smaht,” he mutters as the fabric bares my shoulder, a burst of stardust on my skin from one of my fairy tattoos sending me a sign, a message – encouragement.

And so I drop.

The change in weight distribution shifts his center of gravity. His grip is strong, but the fabric gives enough, and the laws of physics make him lean over me. My hip rotates, muscle memory grooved into my bones so deep that it’s become marrow. My knee stabilizes, psoas muscle curling, the gyroscopic twist of all that I am centralizing in one motion, one choreographed move, one full-body prayer.

I kick up.

I kick out.

I kick all.

He takes it square on his diaphragm, my slippered feet less effective than they would be with soled shoes, but the impact is enough. If righteous fury counted as force, he’d be hanging from the moon right now.

Instead, he’s just dazed, on the ground, the lock pick across the room, under the Peace Table.

Blue and red lights flash through the windows facing the road, but I know how the stoplight works on Stately Road, and even blowing through it means the entrance to the building is still a full minute away for the police.

Sixty seconds.

I just need my higher self to carve out sixty more seconds to survive until they’re here.

Leaping to my feet, I find myself facing him. His arms are spread, muscles straining against his jacket as he swells up, pumped by my kick, eyes murderous.

He rushes me.

Oddly, it’s what I smell that strikes me most: the scent of bleach, coffee from the back room, a slight hint of crayons and markers. Instinct has turned me into a kinetic mass with a purpose buried so deep in my brain stem, it’s like my core being is emerging through a fog to lead an army of truth. Without the time to ask for divine intervention, I process flashes of reality, the tree-like pattern of red vessels in Rico’s eye, the grease in the cuticles of his right hand. He backs toward the closed door where we last heard Mattie’s voice.

“Cops ain’t takin’ me nowhere,” he growls, the words layered, an imminent threat. He reaches for his waistband and suddenly, I know.

I know what he’s reaching for.

If he gets a gun in his hands, this is over.

Comical confusion crosses his face as I keep my knees loose, the lights from the cop car turning into the lot. Seconds pass like hours, but it’s really only been three minutes since he banged on the door, according to the analog clock on the wall, the giant owl’s eyes staring at us with a solemnity that is meant to be wise, but I find terrifying.

“What the–” Tearing his gaze away from me, he looks around.

I use my peripheral vision to find what he’s looking for, neck turning when I realize what he’s lost.

His gun is under a chair at the bubble station. My kick knocked it out of his pants.

Poetry comes when you least expect it, not mere words on a page but emotion that truncates because it’s too big to convey any other way. Our bodies speak in silent poetry, too. Pain, grief, horror, terror, disappointment, dismay, regret, loneliness, evil–it all emerges one way or another. 

Right now, my body’s poem starts with one word:

No.

Diving for the gun, Rico doesn’t bother with subtlety. The parking lot is suddenly screaming, just like me as I walk toward his back, twisting to do the mid-air jump and turn I need, every ounce of my No centered in my core, pushing energy from it to the ball of my foot.

Which connects with the back of his head.

No.

He goes down as the screech of tires fills the air, a parallel sound to the one his car made just three minutes ago. The scent of burnt rubber is in my nose, although that’s impossible, and my throat is sore from warrior screams I don’t realize I’m making until the video is reviewed.

The arch of my foot is on his neck.

The gun is still under the bubble table chair.

And every goddess in the history of the multiverse converges in me, their energy lent to me, feeding me, my body a furnace, an atom, a star, a fusion ball with a singular purpose: to save.

To protect.

To win.

And so I roar.

I roar, arm up in thanks to all that aligned to stop him as the police burst through the door, guns drawn on us. I roar in gratitude as Officer Capobeira puts his hands on my shoulders, his barrage of words meaning nothing, just gibberish I can’t understand because I don’t speak with my mouth anymore. I am pure energy, centered for one act, one move, one moment.

How do you unravel enough to remember words?

More cops.

More lights.

Cars and more cars are pulling in, frantic parents appearing, police officers and ambulances clustered in front.

“Fiona. Fiona,” Officer Capobeira says, bending and kneeling before me like Prince Charming at the ball, his hands on my slippered foot, gently pulling up as another officer zip-ties Rico’s hands behind his back. He’s flat on his belly, body covering a train mat designed for play.

“Gun,” I whisper.

The cops both freeze. “Where?” they ask in unison.

“Got it!” a female officer calls from the bubble station. “And some kind of pick over there.” She points to the Peace Table.

“He attacked you with that?” Officer Capobeira asks as he stands, my foot now on the edge of the area rug, Rico hauled to his feet.

“Crazy woman attacked me!” he screams. “She broke my toof!” Blood clots along his lower jaw. “I was just here to pick up my kid. I got custody papers. And she went crazy on me!”

“Yeah, yeah, Rico. Tell it to the judge,” the female cop says.

“MATTIE?” A man I know, wearing a paramedic badge and uniform shirt, appears at the glass door. His sharp green eyes catch mine, worried and frantic. “Fiona? Where’s Mattie?”

“Get out of here. Crime scene,” Capobeira snaps, eyes cutting over to someone behind the paramedic, a curt nod and a sudden burst of compassion confusing me.

The paramedic looks at Rico. “You piece of shit. If you hurt Mattie–”

Mattie? Why is this paramedic so worried about Mattie?

Oh. Right. Paramedic. Because that’s Fletch. Chris Fletcher.

Tingling starts at my kneecaps, blooming at different points on my body, energy overloading my skin and pouring through me wherever it can, as fast as it can, my body too small to contain it. Nerve endings in my jawline fire up, sending starbursts into my vision, my diaphragm frozen, my chest a wall of bones held together with nothing more than residual fear.

Fletch. 

The paramedic is Fletch. 

Fletch from Mallory’s wedding party. 

Fletch from middle school.

The last time I dropkicked someone, it was him.

And it was in that moment, seventeen years and a lifetime ago, that I became Feisty.

“Mattie’s mine!” Rico screams at Fletch. “You and your bitch mother poisoned Candi against me!”

He lunges at Rico, the officers anticipating it, a wall of dark-uniformed men and women appearing suddenly. Two paramedics grab Fletch’s arms, elbows bent, his face hard to see with so many big, powerful officers surrounding him.

“Don’t, man. He’s not worth it.” Capobeira’s voice is calm, measured–and loud enough to make sure Rico hears.

“Besides,” someone else says, their voices mingling as they all turn into energy threads, their bodies no longer real and distinct. “He got the shit kicked out of him by a chick. That’s all the guys in lockup with him need to know.”

Masculine laughter fills the air. I look at Fletch.

He’s not joining in.

“Fiona?” he asks, stepping toward me. “Guys, I think she’s about to–” Warm, strong hands hold my shoulders as my legs turn to rubber, energy whirling inside me, trapped in place, desperate to leave. Fletch’s hand goes around my waist, his polo shirt collar brushing against my cheek.

I look up. Why do I hate him again?

“I’m sorry,” I whisper, brushing my fingers against his short, brown hair. It’s shiny and handsome, softer than I expect.

“For what?”

I can’t answer, the room filling with blue light, not from cop cars but from some other layer of consciousness that makes my heart zoom, my skin grateful for his power, because his eyes care, his hands care, and his expression–oh, his face, his handsome, strong, clear-eyed, worried face…

It’s the last face I see before I faint.

 

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By Julia on January 24, 2020   /   Excerpts, Upcoming releases   /   4 Comments